Tuesday, October 20, 2015

Overcoming Test Anxiety

Test anxiety is like a insidious weed that grows like kudzu in the fertile ground of nursing school. Like a contagious disease it spreads rapidly from one student to another. One student voices their concerns about how they will do on their upcoming test; another says she heard from a senior that this is the hardest test of junior year; yet another says she spent 20 hours studying for this test but still doesn't feel ready, and the rest who hadn't studied even half as long suddenly are gripped with the fear of failure because they do not measure up to their friend's rather excessive preparation. I've seen it all before and have been apart of similar conversations and felt the real effects that test anxiety can have.

Some of us Anne of Green Gables fans can sympathize with her sentiments shared in a letter to Diana in which she expressed her anxiety over an upcoming exam. She confided, "Oh Diana, if only the geometry examination were over! But then, as Mrs. Lynde would say, the sun will go on rising and setting whether I fail in geometry or not. That is true but not especially comforting. I think I'd rather is didn't go on if I failed!" We've all been there--believing our entire fate rested on a single test. But I'd like to share how I came to realize that my fate does not rest on a "what" but a "Who".

When I was in high school, my youth pastor used to get down on his knees before the classroom, lift up his hands to God and pray a prayer that has impacted my approach to tests and my whole approach to life. He prayed something along the lines of, "God, I humble myself before You, and admit I cannot do anything apart from You. Give me the grace I need to preach this message." By his example, I started praying my own prayer before every exam, "Lord, I humble myself before You and admit I cannot do anything apart from You. Please give me Your grace and supernatural ability to do well on this test for Your glory not mine." By that prayer, I surrender the outcome into God's hands. When I try to do anything in my own strength, whether I pass or fail, the credit belongs to me. Therefore, the best way to overcome test anxiety is not only preparing well by spending sufficient time studying but to surrender the outcome to God and ask Him for His help. James 4:10 promises this: "Humble yourselves before the Lord and He will exalt you" (ESV). We have a God in Heaven Whose pleasure it is to shower blessings upon us (Lk. 11:13, Rom. 8:32, Js. 1:17). We don't have to live weighed down by cares and concerns (Matt. 11:29-30). In 1 Peter, we are commanded to "Cast all your anxiety on Him for He cares for you" (5:7, NIV).

A special thanks to the junior nursing student who asked me to write this post. I hope you will be as encouraged by it as I was in writing it.

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

Everyone Has Those Days

Those days when you feel like giving up are some of the hardest ones you can experience as a nurse. Usually caused by short staffing and a multiplicity of circumstances that lead to you having a hard day, discouragement can often try to bring you down and take your eyes from why you came here in the first place. A few days ago I had one of these days. I was over-stressed and had a lot of things going on simultaneously with my patients. I was on the brink of tears by the time 3:45 pm rolled around I hadn't had lunch yet. When I finally got lunch, I asked the Lord for His grace to do whatever came next when I walked out the door of our break room. Even after lunch, I still faced difficulties, but something was different. I was not as stressed by them. The Lord had given me the peace that prevailed in every circumstance (Phil. 4:7).

Later when I got in my car to go home, I unconsciously took a big sigh of relief. It had not been an easy day, but as I sat in my driver's seat pondering all that had taken place, I was reminded of the goodness of our God. He had helped me get through the day. It was by His grace, not my ability, that all my patients were taken care of (2 Cor. 12:9).

I want to encourage all the nurses and nursing students reading this blog to remember where our strength comes from--He is the source of our peace, our joy, and the grace we need every day. I was reminded this morning of a verse in Lamentations which says God's mercies are "new every morning" (3:23). Before our feet hit the floor on our next shift, let's take a moment and thank God for His faithfulness and the strength He is going to give us to be the nurses He's called us to be (2 Pt. 1:3).

"Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken." ~Ps. 55:22

Tuesday, September 22, 2015

Mid-Semester Reminders

About this time of the semester the days tend to run together starting with an early alarm that reads something like 0500 and clinicals that start shortly after that. I remember what that was like and, in fact, am reliving those times now as I am working full-time and taking a graduate statistics class while studying for the GRE. While late nights and early mornings are all too familiar for many nursing students, I want to encourage you to not lose sight of the One Thing, the thing that is necessary. Now is not the time to neglect our quiet time with the Lord. I know it's hard to find time. Believe me, I'm right there with you, but think about all the other things we miraculously always find time to do...ahem...like check Facebook, Instagram, and other social media outlets. I know I have come home after a long shift at the hospital, done both of those things, and then realized that I hadn't read my Bible yet. It's times like these that I have to examine the quality of time that I'm giving to the Lord. Am I giving Him my best? Or my left-overs? Let's strive to give the Lord our best in our time. When we put Him first, He promises to reward us and to take care of the rest.

"But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you." ~ (Matt. 6:33, ESV)

Friday, February 6, 2015

Why I Love Charge Nurses

When you graduate from nursing school you have a few months that you spend with a preceptor, but then you are released and are virtually on your own, or so it feels much of the time. During my orientation, I was intimidated by my charge nurses. I erroneously thought that they were too busy and important for me to bother. Boy was I wrong! If you need help or simply have a question, your charge nurses are your biggest resource. I love all of the charge nurses I work with. They each have their own special gifts, and all are extremely helpful.

Charge nurses typically have many years of experience and are the "experts" Patricia Benner describes in her book, Novice to Expert. They are the nurses you can call when you need a second opinion before you call Rapid Response to come for a nurse consult or page your physician about a change in patient status. As a new grad, I know that I, and other new grads, sometimes need this second assessment by a senior nurse to validate our own assessment and give us confidence before we recommend the physician to escalate care.

My advice to recent grads in the December 2014 class who are becoming the latest proud group of RNs to graduate from Liberty University is to make friends with your charge nurses. Your charge nurses are the ones you can call when you are swamped with STAT labs, meds, patient care, and have no way of getting it all done yourself. Charge nurses want you to succeed as much as you do. Don't be afraid of asking for help. One of the most important lessons you will learn as a new nurse is, when you need help, ask.

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Note of Encouragement: To Nursing Students

I can hardly believe that Christmas break is over and school is back in session. I remember the mixed feelings of excitement, dread, and anticipation which would overwhelm me at the beginning of each semester. Before life gets crazy, I would like to encourage some LU nursing student out there who is reading this right now to keep first things first. I know it's easy to get caught up in the busyness of school and clinicals, but always remember why you are here. Seek Him. Know that He loves you.

I know sometimes being driven and a go-getter can be lonely and sometimes discouraging when we find ourselves falling short of what we hoped for and expected of ourselves. One of the biggest lessons and best pieces of advice came to me by the mouth of Ms. Drohn after I felt that I had failed and the world was ending because I realized I wasn't perfect, which sounds as ridiculous as it was. She told me that there is only One person who's perfect, and if you're Him we've got bigger problems on our hands. Now that made me smile through my tears, but it really is true. Perfectionism is a good thing insofar as it pushes us to excellence, but it can be a burden and a hindrance if it causes us to rely on ourselves instead of Him alone who IS perfect. Now I don't know if any of that is helpful for you, but if it's not maybe you'll be able to use it to encourage someone else in your program.

Keep up the good work, LU nursing student! You can do all things through Him who gives you strength. Lean on Him. He has you in His hands.

Q&A with an LU Nursing Grad

Recently I was contacted by Emily, a current junior in the nursing program at Liberty. She had a lot of great questions that I remember asking some of the seniors when I was a junior. I’m sharing them here in the hope that they will help other nursing students with similar questions.

Q: What advice do you have for applying to externships?
A: My advice about applying to externships is tailor your resumes and cover letters to each application. Use some of the key words that they use in the job posting in your resume/cover letter. Be concise but show the nurse recruiters why you're the best. I would also recommend using Liberty’s Career Center as a resource. You can electronically send your resume into them for critique and even schedule a mock interview.
Since you are filling out applications now, this will probably apply more to your future applications to new grad jobs, but I would recommend seeking out opportunities to serve (CSER is a great option) that will look good on your resume (esp. those related to nursing). It's rewarding in two ways. First you're serving God, which is the most important, but second, serving without pay is something unique that shows that you want to give back to your community not just be a consumer. Employers want employees with a service mentality because they know that A) it makes them look good B) you get personal satisfaction from helping others, which causes you to C) be a better employee as a result (less burn-out). Some service opportunities I would suggest are volunteer nursing lab worker, Patho/MedSurg tutor, and community nursing educator (I taught a class on drug addiction to women at a local Teen Challenge in my community).
When you are in your interview, be confident. You can look on the Liberty Career Center website for typical questions that interviewers ask and then formulate some responses. Think of a 7 or so nursing or work-related stories that highlight some of your personal qualities that they are seeking (compassion, caring, integrity, critical thinking, ability to work with difficult people, etc.). Once you get to Leadership (NURS 490), you will learn how to write a “critical incident” that highlights your skills and abilities which are exemplified in a particular patient care situation. This seems like a difficult assignment sometimes, but it helps you to go through the process of picking a situation you experienced and then examining it for every area and decision you made that shows that you are a caring, compassionate, hard-working Liberty nursing student who has what it takes to be the best nurse/nurse extern--one that they would love to hire.

Q: Can you tell me about the process of getting into the Adult CCCP?
A: First of all, once you've completed your application, Mrs. Akers, the director of the Adult Critical Care Certificate Program (CCCP), will be speaking with your clinical instructors about you and getting their feedback about your performance in the clinical setting. This is when having established a strong relationship with your clinical faculty really pays off. They will be able to tell her your strengths and weaknesses. (FYI when I was in the running for the program, taking part in the Richmond program was an extra point in the point system for calculating who is selected).
When I applied to the program, I had to submit the last patho of the semester. I didn't realize this at the time, but those who read the pathos submitted in the application really pay attention to these pathos. My understanding is that they look for attention to detail and overall comprehension of the material.
After the preliminary selection is made, a list will be posted in the nursing office of those selected for panel interviews. You will have to sign up for a time slot. I remember everyone (including myself) kinda freaking out about the interviews for the Crit Care program. But remember to take a deep breath and relax.
This is a professional interview so you will want to dress like you are going to a job interview for your first real nursing job. (I think I wore slacks, heels, and a nice blouse). One of the most helpful things I did was go to Mrs. Akers alone and talk with her about the questions I had about the program prior to the interview. She is super sweet and caring and loves talking to students about her passion for critical care nursing.
I don't know if Mrs. Akers and Dr. Kennedy will offer this to your class, but even if you don't make it into the first selection of those in the Crit Care program, there are usually those who don't get a high enough grade in NURS 460 and have to drop out of NURS 465 (which is the CCCP class). If you're put on the waiting list, you can still get in if there's an opening. Also, last year Mrs. Akers and Dr. Kennedy taught an ACLS class for those who were interested and got an A (and maybe even a B) in NURS 460.

Saturday, June 7, 2014

Lessons from a Blind Beggar with Big Faith

Lately I've been reading through My Utmost for His Highest by Oswald Chambers, an excellent book full of meaningful insights and challenges from the author. One of the Biblical events brought to life in this book is the story of the blind beggar who called out after Jesus as He passed by (Luke 18:35-43). Despite the crowd’s rebuke that he should remain silent, the beggar was persistent and kept calling after Jesus, and, instead of giving up, he “shouted all the more” (Luke 18:39b). According to Chambers we must be like this beggar and “Persist in the disturbance until you get face to face with the Lord Himself; do not deify common sense. When Jesus asks us what we want Him to do for us in regard to the incredible thing with which we are faced, remember that He does not work in the common sense ways, but in supernatural ways” (p. 60). 
Reading this was a challenge for me to not stop with ordinary prayers with easily attainable outcomes, but to ask God for the seemingly miraculous or unattainable things. Don’t get me wrong, I believe the Lord wants us to ask Him for the small things, but I think He also wants us to have faith like this blind beggar and ask Him for the seemingly ridiculous and impossible thing, that we may experience His supernatural power in our lives. According to Chambers, “If it is an impossibility, it is the thing we have to ask” (p. 60). The blind beggar, when asked by the Lord, “What do you want me to do for you?” (Luke 18:41), asked Him for the impossible—to receive his sight. And he did!

According to Chambers, “Faith is not in what Jesus says but in Himself”. I thought this was so true and fitting for many of us today when we stare into the blackness and mystery of the future, shrouded by uncertainties and unknowns. There is only one thing that is certain and in which we can hope—the character of Christ, a man who never changes, more than that, a God who never fails or forsakes us, His beloved. It is my own self-will that causes me not to trust Him. My worry is only evidence of the immaturity of my trust in Him and my forgetfulness to remember Who He is. 

Today, let us remember the goodness and faithfulness and promised provision of our God and pray for what we think are impossibilities.

Chambers, O. (1997). My utmost for His highest. Uhrichsville, Ohio: Barbour & Co

NCLEX Scheduling Information

When you schedule your NCLEX, there are three main steps you need to take (possibly more depending on the state). The three steps are register online with the State Board of Nursing with which you wish to be licensed, register with Pearson, and get fingerprinted. In North Carolina the cost of registering to be considered eligible to sit for boards was $75 and is done through Nurse Gateway, which is the portal used to register and check the status of your application to become an RN. The cost to actually take the test at one of Pearson's testing centers was $200. For the background check, the cost of the background investigation was $38, and the cost to have my fingerprints taken with the LiveScan (a requirement of the NC state board of nursing [NCBON]) was $10 at the nearest LiveScan equipped police department in NC. For more information about testing in North Carolina, see the NCBON website and check out the information listed under the licensure/listing tab.

Once you have filled out all your information online or on paper forms (depending on your state protocol), routed your official transcript electronically or through the mail (NC requires electronic for out of state school applicants such as Liberty), registered with Pearson Vue, and submitted your fingerprints and release of personal information, you will await the approval to test (ATT). Once you receive your ATT, schedule your test RIGHT AWAY! I, unfortunately, waited about 30 hours to schedule my test after receiving my ATT because I wanted to take more practice quizzes and see how I was doing before scheduling my test  date. I had no idea that test dates were filling up quickly, and I was forced to wait several more weeks than I would have liked to test.

The story of my NCLEX is to be continued...I test on June 16th.

Monday, March 3, 2014

Springboarding Your Worries

A couple weeks ago my mom sent me a text with a great reminder about trusting the Lord and not worrying. It said something along the lines of "pray as much as you worry." What she meant by that is to turn your worries into prayer. I like to think of this as a springboard. When you're worried that your patient won't make it or you won't make it through nursing school or through the midterms or whatever you're worried about, redirect your attention off of yourself and your own inadequacies and focus on the Lord and His all-sufficiency.

This is illustrated by a passage I was reading last night in Psalms. The passage describes what Anne Shirley would call "the depths of despair". The psalmist was in a dark time when everyone seemed to be against him—even the Lord (Psalm 88:7). Even so, he remembered the "steadfast love" and "faithfulness" of the Lord and cried out for His mercy (Ps. 88:11). While the troubles of life were surrounding Him, he recollected the "wonders" of the Lord (Ps. 88:12). He cried to the Lord daily and spread out his hands to the Lord (Ps. 88:9) even though the Lord's wrath laid heavy upon him (Ps. 88:7).

When I read this passage, I was so impressed by the psalmist trust in the goodness of the Lord despite his depressed circumstances that I was challenged to examine my own heart and the way I respond when I am faced by trials. This man was desperate for the Lord and expectantly asked the Lord for renewed favor. How much more should we trust our Lord in every circumstance? Like the psalmist, we should see trials, troubles, and even potential troubles that we worry could happen as opportunities to come before the Lord in prayer.

Here are some scriptures to remind us of the God we serve and the power of prayer:
"Cast your cares on the LORD and He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous be shaken" (Ps. 55:22).

"But He said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong" (2 Cor. 12:9-10).

"Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that you may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much" (James 5:16).
"Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in Him, and He will act. He will bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday. Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him; fret not yourself over the one who prospers in his way, over the man who carries out evil devices!" (Ps. 37:4-7).

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Perfect Peace

How many of us wish we lived in "perfect peace" all the time? I know I do. Isaiah 26:3 says, "You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You." Now that's a promise! Over the past few days the Lord has been convicting me that I often allow myself to become distracted by the "cares of this world" (Mark 4:19) that easily crowd out thoughts of my Savior. Instead of continually renewing my focus on Him and devoting myself to Him "in body and spirit" (1 Cor. 7:34), I all too easily allow my focus to drift away from Him to things like homework, clinicals, and grades. 

I know that it the middle of the semester, and that this can be a difficult time with Mid-Terms and exams that just don't seem to end in Nursing School, but I want to challenge you, as I am challenging myself, to remain focused on the Lord. I was reading in My Utmost for His Highest by Oswald Chambers this morning, and Chambers challenged his readers to "use your imagination to put yourself before God" (p. 42). What he meant by that was to use your imagination (your thoughts) in a way worthy of the Lord (Phil. 4:8-9). Instead of our imagination living in a starved state because it is set on thinking about whatever our empty impulses desire, we can instead set our thoughts to contemplate the majesty and the wonder of God. Where can we look for our inspiration? The beauty of sunsets artfully painted by God, the trickling or thundering waterfall pouring over the side of a cliff, the majestic scene of mountains overlaid with clouds of water vapor, the starry host of heaven twinkling in an inky sky--these are all launching boards for our imaginations to imagine God--to consider and meditate on His power, majesty, and grace in saving us mere humans. 

When setting our mind on Christ our King and Creator, we have no reason to fear the future, to worry about what will come our way, or to think for a moment that He might not come through for us this time. Instead we can rejoice with the psalmist who realized the majesty and the wonder of God and found "perfect peace" in Him. Psalm 8:1-4, 9: "O Lord, our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth! You have set your glory above the heavens. Out of the mouth of babies and infants, you have established strength because of your foes, to still the enemy and the avenger. When I look at your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him, and the son of man that you care for him? . . . O Lord, our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth!"